why is it so hard for me to approach the throne of God?

Hebrews 4:16 says, “Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace in our time of need.”

i just find it so hard to approach the throne. i understand the fact that i am a sinner, BUT i am redeemed/made clean/sinless by the blood of Christ Jesus, so why is it so hard for me to approach the throne of God.

maybe there are just spells/seasons that believers go through. some days i am doing awesome. jesus and i are tight. there are honestly days where it seems like i am in the presence of God all day long. then there are other days that it seems like there is no chance to be in the presence of God. i guess that is where faith comes in.

i just need to remember that Jesus himself made it possible for me to enter the presence of God by His death on the cross. i need to, at every possible chance, take advantage of His sacrifice and enter the presence of God.

*day two of the H2O project and im doing good.