yesterday was a hard day. sunday night was the viewing for my cousin. it was hard, but at the same time it was encouraging. it started at 6 and went till 9. from about 6:30 to 7:30 there was a line out the back of the chapel. a line full of people whose lives brian touched. yesterday at 2 we had his funeral. it was a beautiful day outside. we as a family were grateful for that. the chapel was again packed. standing room only. if only he knew that this many people were thankful for his life and friendship and in turn were destroyed by his death. after he was carried out of the chapel and into the hearse we all followed. walking behind the hearse to brians final place of rest. there were so many people, showing their love for him and their support of our family. i couldn’t help but cry.

i came to a realization yesterday at the funeral that it is pretty silly that it takes tragedy to bring people together. if i were to add up all the hugs and “if you need anything please don’t hesitate to call”’s that i received this weekend it would surpass the total from the other 24 years of my life. i felt community like never before this weekend. i felt a different kind of love this weekend. it was amazing, but i wish it wouldn’t come because of my cousins death.

i don’t really know what else to say but thank you for your comments and your prayers. please specifically pray for my aunt donna and my cousin stephanie. they are both being as strong as they can in this time but they are still having a really hard time. please pray for a peace to come over my family. we are all stressed with other stuff and then to have this tragedy on top of it just makes things really hard.

thank you.