through this entire process dealing/healing with and/or from my cousins death i have seen something that has made me sick. that is the lasting signs of divorce. here we are in a time when we need to love and be completely unselfish but all we can be (because of the divorce) is selfish. asking questions like “what of his do i get?”, and making statements like “i am entitled to it!”. im sick of it. we are all mourning. how ’bout we just mourn and let the healing begin before we start dealing with all that crap.

through this i have seen the lasting effects of divorce. because of this divorce many years ago, there has been a wedge shoved between former husband and wife that will never be removed; between dad and daughter that will never be removed and that wedge is causing more problems than ever at this moment.

i have been watching this closely simply because i will be getting married in a couple months and it is my plan to never cause my family to experience the lasting effects of divorce. it is my aim to love my wife with every ounce of my being. to love her. to serve her. to care for her and to play guitar hero with her until our fingers are numb. and i am confident that she will do the same towards me.

this just hurts. death is never fun. ever. but this situation just adds another log to the fire. please pray that God will guide our family in all upcoming decisions. we are truly going to need His guidance